I thought about how I should re-start this blog, and quite frankly I need to just follow my own advice and jump in. So let me tell you this: I’m lazy. I do a whole lot of thinking about doing things, and barely any of the actual doing. I have always been a planner but somewhere in the last 12 years my ‘planning’ has turned into one excuse after another to not do whatever it is that I’m thinking about doing.
- Exercise? Tomorrow will work better for me. I”m tired right now and my knee hurts a little… plus it’s cold/hot/rainy/dry/stormy/beautiful outside, and I just don’t feel like working out.
- Eat Better? Tomorrow. I really want some Taco Bell/Burger King/Burgerville/pizza right now. Besides, buying all those fresh fruits and veggies is so expensive!
- Save money/get out of debt? Every time I try to save I end up having to spend it on something, so what’s the point? My budget looks good on paper but sometimes I need another Starbucks and everyone eats out at lunch! I just don’t make enough money and I’ll just have to deal with living paycheck to paycheck.
- Go Out More? I’m too tired and I don’t like crowds. Besides, I don’t like being the fat one in the group and everyone else will just wonder what I’m doing hanging out with the skinny girls. And what if a guy tries to talk to me? I don’t want a guy to like me when I look like this! And traveling is out of the question! I refuse to have fat vacation pictures taken, and you can’t make me!
Okay, so maybe I’m not so much lazy as I am overflowing with finely crafted excuses, perfected over the last decade – with a few tantrums thrown in for good measure. I’m not good with ultimatums either, or deadlines, as I am apparently happy to just wave at them as they fly by.
What I need to do is make a choice. A choice to do what I know needs to be done. A choice to live the life I want. A choice to make the changes, and take the steps necessary to make that life a reality. I will not be happy until that life is firmly in my grasp, and I am the only person that can make it happen.
I need to jump, and this blog is me leaping off the end of the dock into the unknown – sink or swim – here I am.
